Dear Andrew I have never felt pain like I did on that Friday evening, 21st November 2008, when I found out that you had been knocked off your motorbike whilst riding home from work, and had been killed. My world stopped at that moment and I had to see you. I went to the hospital and you just looked like you were asleep, I expected you to sit up and tell me you were okay, but you didnt. For the first couple of days after the accident I was just numb, I couldnt stop crying and kept hoping I would wake up from this horrible nightmare and find you lying next to me in bed. You would then give me a kiss and a cuddle and reassure me that it was just a bad dream. Unfortunately that was not to be. For the next couple of weeks I survived on adrenaline alone, waking early and staying up until late, sorting out paperwork and keeping myself constantly busy. In the week of the funeral I seemed to find some kind of inner peace which gave me the strength to get through that day. Hundreds of people turned up at your funeral - you didnt realise you were so popular did you! I received so many sympathy cards, everyone loved you Andrew and you were described on so many cards as “a true gentleman”, “a family man who adored your wife and kids”, “larger than life” and “the life and soul of the party”. That just about sums you up really but I would describe you as simply “the best person in the whole of the world”. I feel you around me all of the time and am sure that you are looking after me and the kids. If I am unsure of what to do in a certain situation, the answer just pops into my head as if you put it there. I think you are also giving me some of your personality and I am a better person because of it. We had the best marriage ever, 6 years of pure bliss. We had some fantastic holidays in our caravan, we had some fun parties and barbecues, we really lived life for the moment and for that I am eternally grateful. We were soulmates, best friends and everyone who met us could see the depth of our love for each other. We were really lucky to have what we had together, even though it was short lived, and even now, knowing the bitter ending, I would still want to do it again - to experience that special love that we had, or rather have, because we still love each other just as much now as when you were alive. Our 2 beautiful children are a credit to you, they both have your confident and outgoing nature and are really clever, just like you. Daniel is the image of you and every time I look at him I see you smiling out of that gorgeous face. Eva has your eyes, the exact shade of blue as yours, and the same way of looking at you as if she can see right into your soul. I miss you sweetheart, every second of every day and would give anything in this world just to see you and hold you one more time. Please keep looking after us and give me the strength to be the best mum ever to our children. Love you forever sweetheart Mandy